Promise...

WELL! today was quite interesting.... in some ways..... i finally understood the meaning of stairway to heaven from led zeppelin and yea,, it was ,,, whoa.... makes me wanna pass onto the after life even more lol...

ummm went drinking lol ... well yea began with my day waking at 5am waiting for lisa socheata, saying they were comign to my house.... and i realised i forgot to give my address to them rofl ahahahah

ummm what else... then went back to sleep lol.... woke up at 12 rofl ..... waited til roughly 3:10pm and left the hosue to go meet lisa and socheata at warrick farm :P and then when at merrylands got a call from kevin lol..... we then met at merrylands... got to warrick farm rofl...a hahah and yea.... then i saw lisa and i aws like whoa.. O_O she's grown ahahah its been like 3-4 years :P since i last saw her :p well yea.... we went to socheatas drank the tequila, beer and absolut cut lollie drink. LOL it tasted like sprite :P ahahahhah well yea.... we then went to the entrance of magic kingdom lol.... lisa told me someone died there or something :p and yea... bummed a bit and then went home rofl.... it was ok... just disappointed ... thoguht socheata would drink more lol

well yea... talking with lisa and kvin atm :P aahhaha its random ahahah and yea im like I AM DEATH......

random much?

very....

well yea... going tomorrow to bankstown to pick up my glasses and city to hand in my application form for modellers world...

well yea... off to sleep got a headache... -.-

well its been quite some time that i've posted a entry in here lol.... heck its been a while since ive dont any blogging lol...

well a lot has happened to me in these past years.. ive gained many and lost friends. damn that bastard min... ill kick his ass once i see him in the netherworld... well about the other friends ive lost who cares.. they're still alive... i guess

but yea... just bored today lol... and YB keeps askign me to update this space lol... so i will ahahhaha

anyways lets see....since ive been out of high school i got into a nursign course at TAFE in ultimo... it was soso... theory was fun... practical was a bitch,... -.- so yea,... after the year finished which is now this year i got into uni... ACU lol... bach arts majoring in business and minors in japanese and education and my elective is literature lol.... ahhh sweet literature ... it was a hard choice.... between history, literature or geography lol...

well yea....my guitar is getting there lol....always practicing hard lol and ive got $545 left on my new electric guitar lol...

ummmm lets see...well dont know what to say... i now longer look at life at what you can acomplish but now... whos the next one and whos goingto be the last one standing\,.... a game of survival i guess.....maybe i shouold join the army.... i mean if i see my life is so useless... i might as well scrap the idea of beign a english teacher in japan and jsut join the army and be in the front lines.....

well.... yea...*starts sharpening katana* ive read that nasa has a picture of a alien running on the sruface of mars... this sounds complete BS but... is plausible... since evolution can happen anywhere..... so,.. KAKATEKOI UCHUJIN NO YAROU!... UMMM YEA....... jsut beign random there...

anyways lol... a lot has happened so i cant remember much lol.... just like a couple of months ago? lol.....

well jsut grateful kevin is letting me play for church now since i didnt get to play at church camp lol.... ummmm

o yea... ive been on my red P's for sometime lol...ummmm ahahhaha

well.... yea i still have that feature... of mine... piss me off hard and ill rip your head off on the spot.... also i've locked away my sympathy and empathy emotions... so everytime someone expects me to care or something... sorry im all out of it... -.- IDGAF.... well yea.... also if ive said sorry... i dont mean it... -.- i've never regretted anything ive done... so any pranks i pull on anyone.. dont be a pussy and cry about it.... jsut laugh at how you were stupid enough to fall for it lol....

ummmm well yea...

OMG..... letters from iwo jima is cool.... a lot of blowing up lol....... mmm i shouold watch night watch my bro said it was an exceptional movie hmmmm/// anyways... thats all i can remember lol...

o yea... YB forgive me if i wont be able to make it to the trip to japan,,,, but i may be going the following year if i transfer to UNE.... and ill be in japan for a year lol...

anyways cya all

well....its been a while since i made a entry in my space...well..over the past couple of months a lot of things has happened...both good and bad..but seemed like time just flew...

well....i dont know what to start of with...i guess i'll start off with the bad...i've met some annoying people...that just wasted my time a lot...so yea..kinda ruined my mood a lot...another is that i failed my trials..i mean WTF!...and i studied...but screw it...if i dont make it into uni..i got ray J's idea tas a bak up lol...hillsong college...and yea do the creative arts or something like that...need to improve my guitar greatly...um...yea..ive lsot a lot of money...but i guess money comes and goes lol...but i guess the saying goes..."i hate money...but its the lack of it i hate" well....ummm dont know what to say...my commonwealth ac has been frozen..and i cant get the remaining money out..and i dont know what to say to my mother when she gets back...but i made one with westpac...but i hope she wont get pissed at me...o yea...another bad and terrible thing that has happened..was that...my mother had a heart attack in china..and theres no way i can contact her..im worrying like theres no tomorrow... i feel hopeless...i miss her and i want her home again....but im also doing stupid things....like not getting sleep...trying to practice guitar til my fingers bleed...just to keep my mind occupied...but i guess its nt hapeneing, since a lot of my dear friends are worrying about me....and if they went into a nervous breakdown just by worrying about me too muh...ill feel guilty...and probably do something stupid...again...

well...moving onto the good things....

 

 

 

cant think of anything atm...

 o.yea.i finally practiced hard enough to be able to paly canon rock...but since i just started guitar its kinda hard lol...gotta keep my mind on scales and sweeping lol...o wellz..umm.i might get a new ap...dont know what type though...im leaving that job to ray j to help me find a good amp lol...and maybe if i feel like it i might save up more moeny to buy a fender strat, squier strat or a ESP guiat...thats IF!! i get the money or i want a new guitar lol...umm...nothing really good to say....just some random stuff..but PLEASE GOD.guide my mother safely to australia...

amen...

well...ya guys..im off...to guitaring my fingers off lol...

ill post another entry later..lol...

hmmm well...yea to start it off...i've gone back to watching anime -.-" dont know why and how i stopped to a new level of low...lol...instead of practicing guitar and learning scales...im watching My HiME, and higurashi no naku koro ni.....its about crazy girls running around killing each other...and ummm yea...drinking a glass of water as well...damn out of green tea -.-" and i CBF making anymore =P....

ahhh...damn so bored....anime is getting boring...lol...well i started playing gunbound again...lol....pwned a couple of noobs with my sate :P

well im off...just babbling on this random entry...cya

well..its a saturday...and im bored...even though its the HSC trials week...and i should be studying...but im too lazy >.<" so im watchin Tsukuyomi..moon phase -.-" with a plate of hot nachos with me =D and DAMN! its soooooo nice xD with all that melted cheese and sauce and doritos :P well yea...so far im watching  tsukuyomi, eating nachos and trying to play canon rock by JerryC and damn its too hard...so yea...the sweeping part is crazy lol...so im starting on scales and YEA!! i learnt the C and D major scale xD but need to learn and improve my speed on them =/

o yea...lets see...i still got biology,chemistry, geography and ancient history ><" such a long way to go.....

well....im getting bored blogging...so im going back to nachos...tsukuyomi and guitar lol..cya laters...

i finally bought my new mobile lol...after how long i said i would...but yea got it for $289 xD and its the sony ericsson w550i :P its a cool looking fone xD, well anyways im off to figure out how o use my fone and put some music on it xD BYE!!

ahhh....lately i've been having cravings for blood....don't know why...well yea incase you peoples didnt know im psychotic...at times....well just seems like i've developed it....i don't really feel pity anymore...

well yea...kinda bored....but yeah....craving for blood is rising...

yeah...think of me as a vampire as you wil but im not..im just abnormal...well anyways...im going to go finish up on homework

SEE I TOLD YOU NOTHING WAS GOING TO HAPPEN >=P....well today was a rather lucky day for me lol...i found out the price for the sony ericsson w900i which is $840 and today after school i went to funworld and lost to some noob in intial D on purpose....and after losing i felt better LOL!! well i guess i dont get much satisfaction from winning against noobies...but o wellz i also learnt that i gotta practice guitat like no tomorrow lol!!! gonna be a great guitarist some day xD

but after around 4:33pm i went to jeans west and bought myself a really cool looking grey knitwear lol and some grey jeans...looks pretty cool...mm lets see the knitwear was $39.95 and the jeans were also $39.95 but yea it beats having to spend $70 on some jacket and city beach :P :P but yea...anyways AHUH!! TOLD YOU NOTHING WAS GOING TO HAPPEN....damn people were paranoid like hell AHAHAHAHAH *tears of laughter*

anyways im going to go do some homework and then play some guitar or world of warcraft

BYE!!!! AHAHAHAH NOTHING WAS GONNA HAPPEN *TEARS OF LAUGHTER FROM LAUGHING MY HEAD OFF*

End this miserable life of mine now.....

wOOt....kevin, michael and i found a new hobby which also includes some payment lol...well yesterday we all made a toal income of 11 bux...and today we made a total or 13 bux :P :P and you know what we do.....the vending machine at merrylands and us have a protection fee lol...well...yea im just being a idiot...anyways.....today went Karaoke and it was damn fun lol....kieron was singing his stupid song...and i sung american idiot and in the end :P :P yea it was pretty bad but still fun....hmm i went with kevin,kieron,johnny,tung,shi,ande and min...i think thats about it...

BTW if your gonna taste the new HOT oatmeal and almond tea DONT try it....it tastes horrible....iit almost made me puke ><"

well yea im gonna go back to my book...called the Lost Boy by Dave Pelzer...its a sequel to A Child Called It....it's still a touching story T_T

BYEZ!!

well..yea as you can see im abck from school and it was horrible...lol...well yea as i would continue what had been nothering me lately was because i couldnt let go of the past...like what happened to eddie yang and david lay...after losing two people i help dear to me, i've been a wreck on the inside...and the death of eddie just let my faith drop so low to a point where i questioned everything such as the existence of god...and other stuff...i keep on asking mysef why did this have to happen now...why did this happen....whats the purpose them dying and so forth...but yea lately i just felt like ending my life at a point...but then again i thought if this would affect the people around me...anyways...i've already talked o Roselind about this and talking to soemone actaully made me feel better....but even though i felt better i cant let go of the past..

Everyime i go back to church all those sad memories jsut come back and hit me and i just feel like whats the point of this...but who cares about me lol...well im gonna go take a nap...

cya laters

 

P.S i want to cry but i cant seem to get the tears out T_T

AHHH!!!?? i cant believe i got 22/40 for chem lol...but hey I BEAT JESS AND EQUAL WITH KELVIN ><"...and yet also I ACNT BELIEVE EMILY BEAT ME T_T...well yea...ill get over it...just a stupid test...anyways...playin guitar...sorta...learning haruka kanata by AKFG but yea...taking really long breaks...i finally got my guitar blister ><" maybe it was from practicing 3 hours yesterday....o wellz...im off to go watch some drama them, cya

wOOt i passed my chemistry exam xD i got 22 out of 40 LOL!!? but yea...even though its a crap score i still passed...and the only one i passed in since year 11 lol...anyways im gonna go rewatch Devil Beside You and to my guitar

well....its been 2 and a half days that i've been pissed...still slightly pissed thought....i've been playing the crap out of my guitar jsut to get the anger out...but yea...hopefully i'll be back to normal by tuesday.

anyways...dont want to be this pissed off again...so ways of not pissing me off til no end will be
1: DON'T WASTE MY TIME
2: DON'T ASK WTF IS THAT? (ITS RICE OR NOODLES) idiot...
3: DON'T FORCE ME TO DO SHIT, JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT MY REASON IS INVALID...DO IT YOURSELF!

4: DON'T TALK BULLSHIT! I CAN'T HANDLE PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY'RE SUPERIOR, YOU'RE NOT! OK!?
so...yea dont do any of these and i'll be fine...i've tolerated all this crap for far too long...
gonna go watch the rest of supernatural and play my guitar for another hour....

man so pissed...dont know why, but when i think back to a lot of things that i just let go, it pisses me off to the max...i've so far compiled a list in my head of reason of getting pissed...well...lets see...where to start off...and btw im not gonna hold back im gonna be saying everything that i wanna say...OH! how about lets start with relationships....OK!!! EVERYONE!! i get the F!#$%EN POINT!!! SO STOP FORCING ME TO LIKE SOMEONE OR GIVE THEM A CHANCE...even though you mean well JUST STOP DECIDING FOR ME AND KEEP BUGGING ME EVERYTIME ABOUT IT PLEASE!!!!! i mean if you pity that person so much why dont you go for her!!?? cant i have my reasons for not liking...or is that you want to establish a one sided relationship!!?? NO!!! i dont like relationships that way...im sorry ok but its time to move on *you know who you are* and beside there are more better people in the world...who will appreciate you...but me...i cant return those feelings...so PLZ MOVE ON!! SO THAT SOME OF THE YOUTH CAN STOP BUGGING ME!!!
hmmm what else....OH YEA!!?? AND when i bring my self cooked food from home for lunch I DONT WANT TO HEAR YOUR F@$KING VOICE SAYING WTF!! IS THAT!!?? I MEAN WHAT DO YOU MEAN WTF IS IT!!?? ITS RICE WITH SOME VEGETABLES!!?? AND ALWAYS WILL BE RICE WITH VEGETABLES...CAN'T YOU TELL WTF RICE LOOKS LIKE??? OR ARE YOU JUST STUPID OR EXPECTING ME TO FEED YOU!!?? FAT CHANCE...this means YOU KIET!!!?? OK GOT IT!!??
what else has been pissing me off lately...OH that stupid movie i just watched with kevin yesterday...on sat if you guys wanna know...watched a really stupid movie called marriage wit...i mean WTF WAS THIS MOVIE ABOUT!!!?? WASTED MY MONEY FOR NOTHING!!!!! o btw i got called out by simmy and rosa...and you know what WASTED MY F@$KING TIME!!!! didnt even talk to me....and called me out...but hey i even got dogged by them....now i know never to go out with people thats gonna waste my time...or waste my money or if i know that they're not gonna even talk to me PLEASE!! FFS if your planning on a outing and call someone you talk to them right!?? and say its been a while or some shit that similar...YOU DONT CALL THEM AND SAY SEE YOU AT CINEMAS and then SAYING OH!?? YOU CAME!!?? well..go watch the movie.. and ill come later AND THEN YOU LEAVE!! without a trace...
THEN NEXT THING THAT PISSED ME OFF IS MY LIL NEPHEW....just after i come from home and i come into my room...I SEE ALL MY STUFF OUT OF PLACE!!! MY GUITAR STRINGS UNTUNED JUST LIKE WHEN you just put the new strings in and its all loose...I SPENT 1 and a HALF F#$KING HOURS GETTING IT BACK TO TUNED!! yea..i know i suck at guitar...so whatever....im already pissed enough...I SPENT ANOTHER 1hour CLEANING AND PUTTING EVERYTHING BACK INTO PLACE!!? i mean i keep such a effort to keep it clean so why do i have to go through this crap again and again....
ANOTHER THING IS KEVIN!!! STFU when im playing intial D YOUR NOT GOOD!! OK!?? YOUR SHITTER THAN ME!!?? so stop talking shit and stop making excuses...i know you cant do any better..so stop trying to compare....
another thing that pisses me off is all that randoms on the train giving me attitude!!?? I MEAN WTF!! IS YOUR PROBLEM BITCH!!?? I DIDNT DO JACK SHIT TO YOU SO STFU AND WALK THE OTHER WAY!!?? AND I SEE ALL THOSE OTHER PEOPLE BULLYING THE DISABLED!!? I MEAN DUDE WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM!!?? THEY'RE HUMAN FFS!!?? TREAT THEM LIKE ONE!!? THEY GOT MORE BALLS THAN YOU!!?? OK!!? FOR BEING ABLE TO COPE WITH A WORLD LIKE THIS, i admire them...SO STFU!!?? AND STOP BULLYING THEM!!?...EVERYTIME I SEE THIS SHIT HAPPENING I ALWAYS GET PISSED!! I WANNA BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THEM AND MAKE THEM DISABLED SEE HOW THEY FEEL LIKE IT!!
SO IN CONCLUSION...these are the stuff that has pissed me off recently...cant think of anymore...TOO

F!@KING PISSED...i feel slightly better though...well hope this message go out to all those people....laters...OH AND BTW IF IM PISSED TOMORROW AT SCHOOL DONT FUCKING MAKE ANYMORE PISSED OR IM GONNA RIP OFF YOUR F@$KING HEAD!!?? GOT IT!!?? GOOD...im gonna go take a nap to chill....

ive been watching 惡作劇之吻  lately, which is a taiwan drama, its about some girl called Xoang Qin falling for the coolest/smartest guy called Zhi shu, and she has no chance with him, but yea too lazy to type the rest, you cango watch it lol, its called It started with a kiss. and yea zhi shu keeps on looking down on xiang qin and teasing her and doesnt accpet her feelings, shes been liking him for 5 YEARS!!!! and FINALLY in a scene where its raining lol HE FINALLY CONFESSES HIS FEELING TOWARDS HER, lol so touching...almost made me cry lol but damn...good thing i didnt...anyways gonna go finish the series off... cya 

yea...anyways went out today with khiem and sum girl he knows and min to watch FINAL DESTINATION 3 and yea...while watchin the preview i saw the triler for The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift and i was lyk WHOA!!!! AWESOME!!!! cant wait to watch it lol xD and yea...when the movie started i was lyk thie better not be scary or ill be lyk oO but yea during the movie i realised there was nothing to be scared of...and all the scenes where people died i was ltk LOL WTF!!??? HOW THE HECK IS THAT POSSIBLE!!?? man those guys gotta be stupid to think something lyk that will happen and in one of the scenes where the ppl think the guys dead and the motor chops it again i heard a SHARP SCREAM... and i mean sharp...at first i thought it was from the film but then i noticed ppl were laughin and yea i relaised it was the person in the next row lol and i was lyk LOL!!!! started laughing at her...yea well mostly in hte film i was lyk COME ON COME ON SHOW ME HOW THEY DIE!!!!!! DIE DIE DIE!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHH lol and yea was on the edge of my seat laughing lol....and in the end i was lyk hmmmmm couldve been better...o wellz...then we went K and sat there for 1 hour and then we went home...well i got too much excitement gonna go kill it with some homework lol laterz

O YEA!!!! finally got my braces off and my teeth look sooo cool xD yea well kinda tired now jsut felt lyk sayin this as it was the best thing that has happened so far =] im gonna go take a nap laterz

2nd day of skool and it was crap...sigh...nothing really good happened, but i got my english result back and the bitch miss zantos marked us all down i bet cuz she gave me a 6/20 wen i shouldve gotten more than that -.-...i mean our class teacher read it and said it deserved more than  a 6 -.-...o wellz that pisses me off til no end... and btw i heard a really awesome song today from rayj i think it was called light & sounds but dunno by who lol...well im bored so im gonna return to watch my drama.... cya